My Drug

Hello my name is (BEEP)
And I’m and addict
You see ’05 marks the 10th anniversary
Of when I first started using
Well no that’s not exactly right
When I first started being used
But don’t worry about me
This is my 3rd year drug free
I kicked my habit
But not before I got used
Before I was abused
10 years ago I took my first hit
An my drug had me hooked
I was flying high
Sailing in the sky
I heard the birds sing in perfect harmony
I danced with the moon
On a cloud of stardust
My, my, my, if I could but…
No, no I mustn’t

The glowing beauty you see
Came from years of rebuilding me
Though I’m three years drug free
It took three years of pain for me
To kick my habit
I didn’t have 12 steps
There was no rehab
PCP, heroine, crack, cocaine
Please, that’s baby stuff
Meth, crystal, X, HA!
I’ll leave that to you kids
All that weak shit couldn’t
Couldn’t beat what I had in me
Soaring around this 3rd rock
On moon beams singing
“If I could teach the world to sing”
See you must understand my addiction
My habit, my drug was a man.

I was hooked on a man
By looking at me
You couldn’t see how my drug
My drug was killing me softly
Somewhere between year 1 and 3
I lost my selfworth
Somewhere between 3 and 7
I lost my self love
Somewhere between year 1 and 7
I lost me
I lost me somewhere between
The quick fad diets
I lost me somewhere between
“Mister Telephone Man Something’s wrong with my line”

He said he’d call at 3
It’s 8 and he has yet to make it ring
Oh wait he may have dialed
While I was on the phone
What should I do

I lost myself somewhere between
Mary, Sarah, Sheila, and Jane
Somewhere between paternity test 5 and 9
My spirit broke
I lost myself somewhere between
The most painful lows
I lost me

For 7 years I lost me
Betty Ford, NA, AA, 12 steps
Could not explain how to find me
But you see I have 3
Counselors, mentors, shoulders,
Pahtna’s, ride or die chicks
Chell, Shonna, Nitra
They were beside me

Hello my name is (BEEP)
And I’m and addict
But don’t worry about me
This is my 3rd year drug free

--Sinergy